I am person who is living and breathing the sedentary lifestyle and I hate it. I am aware that my time away from work is spent being lazy, lifeless and stuck to my mobile phone. It has become a second nature to me and a dreadful habit. I need constant distraction and stimulation. I distract myself whenever I’m watching a movie with my phone and vice versa. I run more on autopilot than living in the moment. I don’t eat my food mindfully, I rush. I’m not aware of the smell, taste and texture of every bite I take and before I know it I have eaten till I have become full and a shadow of self-disgust looms over me. I wear my yoga pants after work with the intention of working out or doing yoga but that has never happened. I have eight books piled up on my bedside and I have only finished one (because it’s a graphic novel). I’m not unhappy with myself but there must be more to my life than this. Where does my time go? This isn’t a self hate post, but a self realization post.
I like my life but I know I can be better. I don’t want to spend hours and waste my time on my couch and end up regretting the lost day. However, there are days when I just want a break and do nothing because my work week has been hectic. During those days, I need time to catch up with myself. But the problem is how I spend my majority of my disposable time right now.
I want to lose weight, I want to feel energized and feel productive with my time. I can whine about it all I like, but what do I want to do about it? That’s the big question. I want to start small. Everyday life feels the same but when you look back not one day is the same. Firstly, I want to state what big changes I actually want to see in my life:
- Lose weight and reach health BMI of 21 by 31/12/2018.
- Be a mindful eater.
- Log calories eaten everyday.
- Meditate everyday for at least 15 minutes.
- Do not slouch in the bed or couch till after 10.00 pm.
- Do Yoga for 3 hours every week
- Do HIIT work out for 3 hours every week
- Switch off phone and disconnect for 8 hours every week (Sleeping time doesn’t count)
- Write journal everyday. Doesn’t have to be much, even a word is fine.
- Read more books.
I know there is a lot to change and I’m not expecting myself to implement them straight away and automatically change my life. I want to take one step at a time. I want to understand myself better day by day and bit by bit. I want to be the person I know I can be. Life is continuous as long as you are living. I know that once I manage to hit all of my goals, I will have 10 more. But writing 10 new goals in some years down the line indicates that I have accomplished these challenges. With this, I end my first post. Thank you for reading Peach Ribbon.